"Here" as opposed to "I'm Here"

Been seeking this one for a while.

SO there is that experience of Present Moment where we feel like we really exist and right now is really happening. It is solid and tangible, we wouldn't want to be anywhere else, indeed we couldn't be anywhere else, because all there is is Here.

This experience has two very similar but different flavours. The common one is the sense of me experiencing this. How lucky I am we might think, or life is great or perhaps we have the darker non-luminous version which goes something like why is it always me, I'm so unlucky, this is not what I want.

But actually both the luminous and darker version are the same no matter how real this moment is, it is being had by "me." I am here to experience it. I am the one in the forest to see the tree fall. I can leave the forest now and tell everyone what the sound of a tree falling in the forest is. There is wisdom here in that a sound does need a ear to hear it. But stop there.

The other more quiet version of this experience is hiding from usual sight. It is the Present as just being there. I am looking at a sun set now from my study. I could be imagining a person sitting in a room looking out of the window and I could be thinking that all this is there for me so that I can see it. Certainly no one else is seeing this. Not only is it an enjoyable sight but it is my sight. A double bonus of a pleasant experience and affirmation that I am here to enjoy these things.

At least that is the one view. The other is just that there is the pleasant sunset. Seeing that is exactly the same as the bombastic version above. Exactly the same! There is the sun and it is being seen. Awesome let's watch...

 The difference is just that this moment is revealing itself all by itself. There is no need for someone to muscle in and take the front seats. Just let it be. You are already seeing it to even think about taking a front row seat so just forget about the seats. Just have that Now wash over you. There is nothing to do; no one to be affirmed, and no one to take anything away.

Of course the best bit is you never run out of Now. Ironically the only way to run out of Now is to try an take this one for yourself. Just put it down and let the next one come along. Okay there are thoughts of death that can mess that up, we feel limited and short of Nows. But actually we're already tainted to think that. Who is short of Nows? That guy a minute ago, the one in the future or the one Now? Well clearly this one has nothing to worry about, indeed never has anything to worry about, so just forget about it.