Where is Here?

Outside today the weather reminded me of a holiday in Iceland and I wished I was in Iceland again. Then I thought but I am not in Iceland I am in England. It made me anxious because I do not understand what these words really mean "Iceland" and "England". How can I tell where I am from the rain, the tarmac the houses? There is nothing here to tell me what this place is... its just a belief that people have and I have to ask them what they believe to find out.

This is the same problem that dominates my world at the moment. You ask a couple whether they are married because there is nothing "married" about them it is just a belief. You have to ask do you "own" this because there is nothing there to suggest that it is owned, it is just a belief that people have... etc etc.

Actually this confusion is the truth because none of these myths actually exist they are just vacuous beliefs with which the human world of dreams and unrealities is built. The mirror maze of unreality that is contemporary human life.

I shall call this "life" from now on, while "Life" will be the term for what is real and is apparent to anyone who looks. You must ask people about "life" because it is not actually there it is just a learned belief. You can live "Life" yourself because it is actually there for your own inspection and living.

I see now what Buddha means when he says to people that a mountain is not really a mountain and that a person the size of a mountain is not really a person of big stature. These are only so in the world of concepts and beliefs. The reality, that world that you can inspect for yourself without learning and accepting the opinions of your language, culture and world, that reality is quite void of labels and signs to tell you what things are.

The anxiety also told me something else. This is a demon that frightens me away from truth. A karma that hinders me from seeing things how they are. I am not peaceful, and I am not kind to other people and that negativity means that i am afraid of what they will do to me. I am afraid of leaving the artificial reality and seeing it for myself because I am afraid of what others will do to me when I ignore their beliefs. That fear is solved not by falling back into the hegemony but by turning myself even more strongly to th positive to clear the way for even more bold observation and acceptance of the Reality of Life.