We enjoy suffereing

This sounds oxymoronic, but it seems more and more to be true.

If you accept the view that suffering is caused by ignorance and wrong doing and true happiness is freedom from ignorance and wrong doing, there remains the question why do we remain ignorant and do wrong? even after understanding that these cause unhappiness.

The problem is that we chose ignorance and wrong doing because we like it! We like laziness, weakness, ignorance, stupidity, hurt, pain, greed, anger, jealousy, envy, anxiety, worry etc and so we chose it. While suffering we will wish we were not suffering, but then we will do it again and go suffering again and eventually we will wonder why do we go around in circles? The hard thing to realise is that we actually enjoy going around in circles. There is a very profound level in which we enjoy the trials and tribulations, the temptations, the rises and crashes of these circles and that is why we never progress beyond them.

Realising that we are attached to all the hindrances that stand in the way of true happiness is the first step toward true happiness. I suppose until we have tasted true happiness we will remain bewitched by the lower cycles, the instability and uncertainty, but then we will never taste such happiness until we have let go so its a chicken and egg. We need to have faith and strong enough desire to let go of the less contemporary existence we have, and take that leap into the unknown higher worlds where while unfamiliar we know lies truth and profound happiness.