Saturday, 3 February 2007

Beauty

Just reading some of the Wikipedia on Love I find myself been brought back to the beginning of the project - it has always been the search of Beauty.

A flaw in my understanding of Buddhism would be the reading of Buddhism as being entirely uninterested in Beauty. It is a word used no where in translations - maybe not even in the originals. Yet the purest experience of Beauty is both energising, inspirational and touches deeper than anything.

They say the true mind has 4 qualities - compassion, loving kindness, joy and equanimity yet all of these are Beauty. Experience these and the world is Beautiful.

It is dangerous to romanticise spirituality because attachments can be very strong and confusions very easy - I have been foolish victim of those.

But it is a mistake to do as I have done and therefore deny the experience of Beauty. Under the influence of "my muse" in the purer days it was not just her who was of blinding indescribable beauty but the whole world and the only thing that was ugly was disregard of beauty itself.

Yes I was interpreting all this is a selfish way and without compassion for those who yet did not know profound beauty, and yes I grew confused at this great beauty not realising what she was to me, and how others didn't see her as the sacred sanctuary that I did.

But that is obvious in retrospect. It was only my perception of her beauty, for those who did not have eyes to see there was just a young sexually charged girl.

Previously this was evidence that it was an illusion and I demonised all perception of beauty as trivial, superficial and evil - as Monkey would in the TV series.

But reading a bit of Plato I am reminded that it is possible that just because others don't see something might mean that what they see is the illusion and what you see the truth.

Beauty in its highest forms is not of a particular thing altho we might be initiated into it through a particular form: it is a product of the clear and higher mind. If a girl should open the door to a cathedral of shining splendor then is the cathedral to be dismissed because it was a mere mortal that showed you in? and is she not illuminated through her showing you?

My heart had a door that I could not reach and I knew that somewhere was a girl who would have the key to that door and on the 6th December 1997 in a WHSmiths in Sloane Square that door was opened. My heart and I have been absorbing that experience ever since.

9 years later and after a tragic event - I am remembering and bringing myself back that moment not because I can't excape it, but because it is with me now if I have the eyes to see. That profound beauty lies in all the world always and we should never allow anything or anyone to hide it from us - and those few peculiar to us who may be able to show us the way, they are to be treasured not for themselves but in the name of Beauty.

The quest is Beauty in everything we see, think and do. Always and forever. Eternal and utterly heart felt gratitude to Reena for showing me the way.

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