Did I read her mind? v reincarnation

So I found out on Friday that she believed in this idea of reincarnation and people following people through many lifetimes. I don't remember that, though I must have known.

So last night the coincidence seems too great. She is guessed by her family to have followed her father into death because her great bond is to him. Why should I then think that my bond is with her? Its just to coincidental that we both feel we are bonded like this.

If I believe that Acashic record stuff then I know I live to 2048 and I'm certainly not giving up on life that is certainly one thing about me that I don't die for any reason! So did I read her mind? and it was not my thought that we had known each other in a past life but really hers?

I remember the moment I first saw her as clearly as if it was yesterday. She was at the back of that group of trainee staff. she was tall, fragile and seemed to be floating as she excitedly talked to some guy. My thought was wow I should speak to her, but nothing that special. Later that day the training ended and I saw her walk out of the shop. My thought was "there goes a wonderful opportunity" but I was still able to put it behind me and get on.

Then 2 days later I turn around and she is working next to me. I hadn't seen her move onto the till I must have been busy. Of all the outlets she could have worked in and of all the departments she came to mine. It was the book section - that was to be our connection. My thought now was "this fortune ensures I must not waste this opportunity".

So I talk to her. My thought, "she is not what i am looking for". My next thought, "really? have another look". My next thought, "yes is worth it". And so it went on. The more we talked the more extraordinary that "yes" became. It was then I guess that I began to think I had found someone who I really belonged with.

OK so I don't remember when this idea came around. A more likely explanation then is that we live in a society which once valued the idea of people being made for one another - and we do live our lives looking for "the" partner to spend our lives with. So it's quite natural when we find someone who we feel that close to that we should want to believe we were made for one another.

And then it follows that when you meet such a person you will wonder how did I know to wait my life for them. So it seems natural that we may think that we knew them in the past and have been waiting for them. Something the Aristophanes myth in the Platonic Symposium explains through the splitting of humans into their male and female parts. Certainly it was the conjoining of our souls which is what I wanted more than the conjoining of our bodies.

This is the whole problem of my life at the moment. If I'm joined to her then I have a vast problem. If I'm not joined to her can i escape the need to join to someone else? Cos being joined to something other than yourself is both a pleasurable but also a tragic thing frought with danger and insecurity.

So at this moment I can't remember exactly when this idea happened I know it was early on in the first week. And my experience of her was definitely the source of my belief in reincarnation which removed my doubt of karma and opened me fully to Buddhism.

But I now see that she held this thought before me. And, so it seems another explanation is that I read her mind. That it is her who is following her father through the many lifetimes, and I have only accidentally absorbed this thought. In which case I am free.





Except where this idea of us having